| | i got a new lj...my user name is "dancingismylife" im gonna be using that from now on so add me to ur friends list!!! | comments: 1 comment or Leave a comment   |
| | so i got talked into auditioning for grease, so i did. i thought it went just fine, but i ended up with dance corps and chorus, which i said i would not except. so im gonan drop the show tomorrow, for the sole reason that i think dancing is more important and i dont wanna have to comitment of staying after school for an hour and a half or 2 hours everyday for being in dance corps and not having an actual part. so i made the descion to not be in it. i really wanna do goos in ireland and grease would just take up too much time. i went to dance tonight and im kinda out of shape from not dancing too much in the past week, but that wont take very long to get back how i was. im predicting by the end of december, then having 2 1/2 months to get ready for worlds. i think i have a chance at winning this year, but i dont wanna cound like i have an ego. i just think i should take as much advantage of this experience as i possibly can, because if i win the worlds, ill be achieving the goal ive been trying to grasp for the past 10 years of my life. id be the happiest person ever if i won. this is truely what i want to do, and i know it will take a ton of time and effort, and now since i have nothing else to worry about, (grease) hopefully ill be able to put in as much time and effort as it will take to win. | | comments: 3 comments or Leave a comment |
| | Current Music: | tiny dancer | | Security: | | | Subject: | dance | | Time: | 06:56 pm | | Current Mood: |  excited |
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| | so i went to the oireachtas (the mid-west dance championships) and got first in my age group. this means i qualify to go to ireland in march, asa matter of fact i dance in 114 days. i really want to win it this year because i want to be the best. im going to work very hard for the next 114 days. it may seem like a long time, but i know its going to fly by. im so serious about this that im not even auditioning for grease. i want to be dedicated to an extreme now. ive never been this serious about this. if i was in grease it would take up too much time and put so much extra stress on me that would be completely unnecisary. i feel like i need to win this. i want this more than any lead role, or anything for that matter. right now this is all that matters to me. im gonan completely focus on dance and school work. i dont need ot worry about any show now, or anything else besides dance and school. i feel like this is definately the right decision, and its what my heart is telling me to do, so im going to do it. this past weekend has showed me alot, and i never knew how importany dance was until now. I AM EXTREMELY DEDICATED FROM NOW ON. | | comments: 3 comments or Leave a comment |
| | Current Music: | have yourself a merry little christmas | | Security: | | | Time: | 12:10 am | | Current Mood: |  crushed |
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| | okay just so everyone knows, im really sick of people lying to me. i hate how people are saying stuff behind my back. and you wonder why i dont tell you anything anymore. im hurting so much right now, and no one knows it but me. im trying to be a good friend to so many people, and im not getting shit in return. i need to rethink my friends and decide what im going to do. if things keep up this way, im going to die. i have so much stress, and this whole situation doesnt help. im really to just die. i dont even care at all. im sick of people right now. it seems like no one cares anymore. i mean seriously, coming over to my house to hang out with me?? yeah, okay. i believe you. | | comments: 4 comments or Leave a comment |
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| | yeah so...about those people, on of them is making me very upset. i dont want to lose my friendship with him, because i can see myself having a long term friendship with him, although i have lost respect for him because of what he did, but forgive and forget. i need to talk to him because we got into a huge fight last night, and last night was a very bad night for me, emotional and stressful. i really need to talk to him and tell him that. i cant be up late again tonight because im very tired, and i have dance tomorrow night. dance is putting so much stress on me, too. i feel that if i dont win im going to let everyone down, mainly me. i have to win this compitition, and if i dont, who knows what. i really need to start buckling down and taking it seriously. i dance in 19 days from today, and the show just adds to the stress. i constantly am either doing homework, going to dance, or at rehersal...i guess thats what i get for being involved. i just feel like i dont want to lose people, but im gonna end up doing it. im so cranky lately im getting more grounded all the time. and ive basically lost like 4 people already. i just think i need help, so if anyone has any advice people tell me. | | comments: 5 comments or Leave a comment |
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| | im sorry, but i honestly do agree with zmud. you people really need to get your act together and stop actung so fucking immature. you are going to end up hurting so many people in the end of this, you'll only have each other. maybe thats all you want because i can think of so many people right now that dont even want to look at you, including me. you seriously need to stop fucking around and actually attempt to be honest with people. if you dont, you'll lose everything you had, or could have had. | | comments: 5 comments or Leave a comment |
| | so i went to rehersal today, and i guess it was okay. this week has been so stressful. i have hardly gotten any sleep this week and im really cranky. this week coming up is going to be even worse because i have rehersals everyday and only god knows how they will go for. im kinda not looking forward to this week. but anyways, im so pissed right now. my mom isnt letting me go to new york, and ive wanted to go since last year. i really need to convinse her to let me go. i dont know how im going to do it, but i have to try everything possible. and last night i heard some very startling news..although i cannot speek of it. im not really pissed anymore. o well. im really tired so im gonna stop writing because i cant think anymore, lol. ill see you all on monday. | | comments: Leave a comment |
| | im so pissed off right now, and i know why. NO ONE knows the real me except my st mikes friends, siera, and rachel. no one else knows what im about. im really not that sexual of a person, and just sitting here thinking about it, thats the impression ive given off to alot of people. im tired of not having alot of friends and not talking on the phone. im so busy now, im losing the people that mean the most today. i havent talked to siera on the phone in the longest time, i didnt talk to annie all day today and ive never not talked to her before. im not even doing my homework. i dont know whats wrong with me. im just not in the mood to do anything. i dont wanna talk on the phone and i dont wanna do my homework. the only thing i find myself to be doing is sitting in front this damn computer and wasting my life away. im not gonna be online as much anymore because i think its a waste of time. im so confused right now. i just wanna sleep everything away, but i know i cant because its not posible. i just feel like i should be talking to people i dont normally talk to, and not talking to people that i normally do. its a very utterly confusing topic for me to talk about. i cant stand what people think of me right now and its killing me. i seriously just wanna start my life over, so i think im going to. no more sexual michael here. im gonna be myself in front of everyone from now on. im tired of giving off a false impression. im not necisarilly changing my personality, im just gonna be someone that your not used to. i know it sound bad, but i do care what people think about me, and if they will think bad about me, at least they'll know the "real me." im sorry, but thats just the way i am. | | comments: 2 comments or Leave a comment |
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| | hey i just got back from into the woods rehersal, and it sucked. i agree with who i was talking to today about the show. but im not gonna talk about that now. im so excited about my unitard!! i get to be a frog, and just like every other dancer, i get to wear not just a unitard, but a GREEN UNITARD. omg this is so messed up. i think the whole thing is funny. o well, nothing i can do about it now. i get my costume soon enough. im excited, and not excited for the play. it is in only 16 days!! i cannot believe it is coming up this soon. o well, i cant stop it from coming. im leaving now because i have to go to dance tonight and i need to finish homework. hopefully i dont have a long dance class tonight, but i dont know if tim or meghan is teaching...i guess ill find out when i get there, wont i? i hope i dont have alot of homework, either, because i dont feel like doing any of it. i didnt do it last night because i was like, i have all day tomorrow to do it, but it doesnt help that i cleaned the whole house and have rehersal and dance...but everything happens for a reason, so i guess itll all work out in the end. | | comments: Leave a comment |
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